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My Gift to My Daughter – Sorry.

I may have mentioned once or twice that I have become a grandmother recently.  Love it, and love my grandson, by the way.


What this means, of course, is that my eldest daughter has recently become a mother.  She and her husband are going to be excellent parents to this little man.  I know my daughter relishes her time with her son.

My daughter.  She is me.  Smarter, thinner, and prettier, but me just the same.  When she was about three and a half, I took her with me to an acquaintance’s house, where several moms and their little ones were also visiting.  All the other children knew each other and quickly took off into the back yard to run and play as we watched.  I looked over at my sweet little girl watching out the sliding glass door as the others laughed and played and my stomach turned.  I’d been that child once, watching others play and feeling left out and lonely.  It was gut wrenching and I realized that day that my daughter and I were of one heart.

As she’s grown up, I’ve seen more and more of me in my child.  The perfectionist, the worrier, the pleaser, and the downright neurotic.  We have often joked about this and my standard line to her is “Sorry about that”.

When she was in middle school and high school, my girl began getting migraines.  I KNOW I’ve mentioned my migraines here before.  As she got older, they decreased and were very manageable.  But now, having given birth and returned to work, her headaches are becoming a daily habit.  And they are increasing in intensity.  And with all my heart and soul, I am truly sorry sweetheart.

Very Little of This and That

This has been a fairly unproductive week for me.  My migraine started Sunday evening.

Monday was not great, but I crawled in bed at 6 pm and stayed there.  Tuesday started better.  I broke up a fight, rearranged my classroom (around my kids, who were working at their desks at the time – moving the rug from one side of the room to the other was a bit distracting, I’ll admit), and assigned 40+ students their book chapters to read for the next two weeks.  I find when I’m migraining for days on end, I’d better get done all I can in the lulls between serious headaches.  By the end of the day, my head really hurt and I crawled in bed around 6:30.

This morning I went to school long enough to know I couldn’t do it.  I was there less than a half hour.  That’s another drag about chronic migraine.  Sometimes I can go weeks on end with nothing more than a mild ache or a sore neck.  Then, in the space of a half hour I can descend into a full-blown I want to cut my eye out headache.  It gets hard to plan sometimes.

Since I had no deck screws available, I went home and crawled into bed, where I’ve spent a lot of quality time this week.

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